Part 1
We will never know what will happen tomorrow. Sometimes what we have planned didn't work together with what we expected. That is life.
We will never know what will happen tomorrow. Sometimes what we have planned didn't work together with what we expected. That is life.
It has been a week. I just stay at home and do nothing. There are tons of though in my mind. I ask myself a thousand times. What's wrong with me? I cannot sleep well. I count the black-sheep on the ceiling until midnight. I get in and out of the bathroom, often. But it doesn't work at all. I still can't find the answer of my anxiety. My mind is blank.Then my eyes give up when the time is almost dawn.
I try to catch every single word to make a perfect closing but it is so difficult. Several months ago it was very easy to finish this kind of story but now I have to struggle a lot to do it. I know very well why it could happen. It is because I stop trying. Should I angry with such this difficult situation? Of course, not. I shouldn't. Nothing can be blamed in this case. It is only time for me to learn, to think, to try and to forgive. That's all. I would never blamed people, situations, and even me myself. I really believe that something happened because it must be happened. I couldn't put it off or deny it.
A couple months ago it was a very happy moment in my life I thought. I had a hope. I didn't expect a lot but I believed I could rely on you.
"Let's see." you said at that moment after you promised to come to visit.
Then I kept your word deeply in my heart. It was not easy for me to accept somebody into my life. I had to think a lot. There were so many considerations I had to do. Was it right? Was that wrong? Because I never played around with somebody's feeling or my own. There were some times when my friends laughed on my foolishness.
"Why are you so loyal with only one guy? You are not married yet. It is legal for you to have more than one so that you can choose the best one. Come on, Baby! Don't be like a fool!"
I shook my head and smiled at her joke.
"Because I am not you. So, no and thank you!"
"But you often get hurt from that jerk guys because of this." She continued.
"It is up to them whatever they do. But for me, it is very important to treat everybody well."
"Do you believe in Karma? Because I believe that whoever sows the winds reaps the storm." I added
Sumie
Jakarta, 04/05/2017
"Let's see." you said at that moment after you promised to come to visit.
Then I kept your word deeply in my heart. It was not easy for me to accept somebody into my life. I had to think a lot. There were so many considerations I had to do. Was it right? Was that wrong? Because I never played around with somebody's feeling or my own. There were some times when my friends laughed on my foolishness.
"Why are you so loyal with only one guy? You are not married yet. It is legal for you to have more than one so that you can choose the best one. Come on, Baby! Don't be like a fool!"
I shook my head and smiled at her joke.
"Because I am not you. So, no and thank you!"
"But you often get hurt from that jerk guys because of this." She continued.
"It is up to them whatever they do. But for me, it is very important to treat everybody well."
"Do you believe in Karma? Because I believe that whoever sows the winds reaps the storm." I added
Sumie
Jakarta, 04/05/2017
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